ok ok ok, get this down.

sometimes it's terribly difficult to take and idea, a fleeeeeeting idea, and turn it into something concrete, and then especially MATERIALIZE IT! this is something that can be so difficult for me!  i have a million ideas that go through my head, just as anyone i would imagine, a million little thoughts, and i just want to be able to turn it into something! ok so here we go.

So today I was at work and I was sweeping and the girl who works next door to me came by and complained about some bitchy customer.  And as I was sweeping up the dust I thought about how all of us who work with the public have to occasionally deal with the bitch customer, and this is normal.  And perhaps they feel like they have the right to treat us that way because we are working for them?  But again, we are performing a service for them, so they should be nicer to us? (even though they are paying us) REGARDLESS, (and I had to start with the begining here) it got me thinking about how we work for people.  The idea of our daily tasks and how we seem to dismiss how we came to them.  How even though in the past people sold things to others and worked for people, we do all of this hardly stopping to think that we do all of this.  We think about our work, what we did at work, the customers we had, what we have to clean for tomorrow, or whatever, but we do not really think about our work.  Why we work? Where we work?  This is so hard for me to turn into anything, but when did you stop to think about why you're standing behing a counter serving someone besides the fact that you need money?  How far does this go? Even though I've lived in this world my whole life I'm still shocked by where it’s at and where I am and who I am and what I am and all of that.  This may seem so vague, and really it is.  I just, think it's important to not necessarily QUESTION our daily routines, because this is life and it is what it is and not everything is bad, but.. I think we need to just, stop and think more.  And not just go with things mindlessly.  Just acknowledge our daily routines.  I think.  I guess.  Wow.  I don't know. 

I don't know if this idea was refreshed in my mind because of Mark Whalen and his work, which questions our daily practices and routines.  His work is super abstract looking, but I made the relation to it when I was thinking about that today.  I'm not sure how to turn such ideas like this into artwork, I don't know how he did it, but this is a concern that I hope to work on.  And this is one of the ideas that I'd like to explore further.  I have a million ideas, A MILLION, but like I said, it can be so difficult to materialize them. 

If you managed to read through all of that, sweet. lol.