out of context

You can't tell people the whole thing. If you can tell someone everything then they can read you, and if they don't get it they create judgements and you seem like a fool. I lost my safe place, to put everything. All those things that amount to you. Everything that the outside world just may not get. I have to make it safe again, it was important.

It was my place for secrets, a place where you tell those redundant thoughts, those ridiculous ideas, those constant brain pressures... and it must be kept secret. Even to your closest friends there are still those things you just cannot say, possibly because you can expect a reaction and and most likely be misperceived.

You can't just let it all out as something simple and straightforward, because it isn't. Althought what you're saying is true, out of context it just doesn't work. They don't get it. "Your ideaologies don't make sense, that's not how it works." But it works, to you. And you can't help taking the straight foward thoughts of other people and twisting them either. It's natural perhaps. But what the point is, is that you can't let it all out. Your ideas, your thoughts, your problems are essentialy your own.