i was going to try to write something, since i haven't complained about anything in a while.
i've kind of been dishing out my anger on ANOTHER SECRET BLOG which is meant for someone specific who doesnt talk to me at all but for some reason still checks it even few days or so.
weird-o.
weird-o.

i am so tired at this moment and i have about a million and one things that i could write about that ive been thinking about but i think about them so much that it's just so overworked.

although, something interesting is i have noticed that i have regained my sociability in recent months.
i felt like last year i somewhat hermited myself in the sense that i wished to avoid new encounters or fresh people i had just met in order to stay clear of small talk and such.
but now i find i am talk talk talking and words are flowing and things are great in that sense and i am not censoring myself really, but also i am considering what might come off as creepy or a little too weird so it is good because i am finding an important balance in talking with acquaintances.
so then the trouble begins with what do you talk about with someone you've known forever?
hahaha
always an issue to consider.
i was thinking earlier that someone i truly enjoy being around is someone who i can spend quiet moments with doing separate things.
there isn't much i like better than being in the same room as someone (a friend, a love) and doing your own thing.
that is how you know you can live with someone (i think?)
when you can spend time with them but not feel like you have to be out and about doing something
but that is also if that person enjoys doing that as well
because for some people the ultimate thing may be doing activities etc
and those are fun of course

but i just so like wasting time with the people i love
doing very little

so there.
will try to do some more thorough thinking when im not falling asleep.