talking about both little and big things at the same time

think think think and still indecision.
like floating between thoughts. you have to make a choice but you don't want to make a choice because choices chance things.  once you make a choice and you decide "that's it" well that's it.  and some choices are irreversible or hard to reverse but is taking the risk better than not?  making a decision can alter everything and sometimes it's better not to but then sometimes you feel like you're stuck and floating like "i should make a decision" but then that changes things, it's almost certain that it will, but then sometimes maybe it won't and that all depends on actions which is a whole other thing.  see i can't even make a decision on decisions and how i feel about them or what they even are.